Over the last couple years, I've noticed something. It takes longer for the average cut to heal. Bruises hurt longer and stay longer. Everything appears to linger almost before it's done and over with.
Perhaps it's just the thing I've got the guts to call a brain backfiring again, but it seems like even mental pains and strife lasts longer now then it did before. I was under the dilution that as I got older, I'd be able to handle thing better. I'd be able to work through things quicker.
Maybe it's because I'm dealing with different things before then 7 year old Cody was, but it seems like that was very wrong.
7 year old Cody had a problem? You could fix it with Blue's Clues, a Jello Cup, and Bop It (Forehead please). It was all good. No issues, no problems.
Now? It can be far from it. There's angles to analyze. There's things to ponder and wonder about. There's things that you just can't figure out that can't be fixed by gelatin now. I actually need to fix what is at fault now, not just cover it over.
Am I saying this is a bad thing? Not necessarily. Sometimes it's been a pain in the butt to get through it. I feel like pulling my hair out because I don't get why something failed or why something doesn't work.
Or why someone is angry with me yet won't tell me or would rather be somewhere else.
I get bothered now when things don't go 100% right.
I get bothered when I can't figure things 100% out.
I get bothered it takes so long to handle something that looks so easy on paper.
Is this all part of getting older? The 'ol "Coming of age" bit? I dunno. All I know is this.
I want Jello.
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